i m not okay act..

these few days i m tired of hiding myself from the truth.. i m not okay act.

i just cant take things easy.. i just cant accept that it is the end.. but i need to face it..

i got lots of things to do.. i always make myself busy to avoid thinking the fact. but somehow before my bed and after my bed, i will automatic think bout it again.. arghh i hate it..

how can i have a sincere smile anymore? where is the cheerful and happy elaine?

Happy Friends

happy friends. now i only realise actually there are a lot of true friends around me.

thx for everyone's care and love.. especially to carmen who cook mee for me=) puimun for sharing her bed with me, grace who fetch me, pikachu who wrote a encourage note for me, boh chun who scold me all the time=P, alvin who cook herbal tea for me, tan tan, san san, sky and ying hui who support me and call me princess all the time..HAHA.. chacha, anderson my rap gang. lots of lots of friends.. anderson who let me punch and slap..wakaka.. i love you guys!! muaxxiee..

so many wonderful things happen these days.. today 988 came to utar, haha.. i get to join their activities and won a lot of prizes.. hahaha.. FUN! after class we went to BBQ chicken for dinner.. having lots of fun there.. p/s : tan tan is 31 ar!! hahaha... so funny.. thx for building the happy memories with me.. love you friends..

full stop.

finally a full stop is being placed in the relationship.

everything has come to an end.

although its hard to let go. but its not impossible to do so.

unless i try BUT i had tried many times and failed many times.

i m tired of trying. GOSH...

傻瓜我们都一样，被爱情伤了又伤。相信这个他不一样，却又再以次受伤。

nice song that concieve my feeling..

Happy Go Lucky=)

guess what peeps... today my mass comm midterm essay came out the topic that i presented
yesterday.. this time really happy go lucky le.. hahaha.. uses and gratification!! i love it.. hahaha.. but one bad news is act i dunno what i presented yesterday.. everything was just copy and paste
hahaha.. but still manage to tembak gua..

presentation=S

haha.. finally i fin my mass media presentation. gosh.. everything was just so last min..

luckily i manage to fin it.. haha... well, nth to say much here. i am having my mass comm exam tomolo.. arghh.. midterm AGAIN! assignments are driving me crazy. i dun und why i seem have not enough time to settle all my things? can i just stop the time now wait till i settle all my stuff..

owhhh.. i miss you=(

S.I.C.K

just like me n u.. i miss you

i am sick physically and mentally..

i m sick of my life.. uhhh... exam sucks...

so many sucks in my life..

my stupid specs is ruin my life....

i dun even know what i crap for my mass media test..

ouch.. i m going to fail!!

omg omg... i m havin flu now i hope that its not swine flu..

i m having back pain..

arghh.. everyone can enjoy now but me..

i am having my MASS MEDIA PRESENTATION

next tuesday n i not yet even start..

SHIT!! i miss you baby..

where are u?

i am waiting for you=(

test tomoolo.....

in this world, there are full of challenges... exams are part of the challenges. once you overcome it, there will be rainbow in your life but if you cant make it, dont give up at least you had tried..
i wanna aim to get at least 3.0 this sem if i cant do it.........
its okay=) haha.. at least i had tried... cheh... happy to you in my life.. now i can see u more often.. you coloured my life will rainbow colours... hehee love you=)

back to the world..

nice pencil box huh?

this weekend i m so relax.. all my worries and stress are away... but now sad case la.. all come back adi.. i need to face back the reality.. eleh.. btw i am waiting for jeslyn's BUKU CATATAN.. haha.. if she cant give me by this weekend she gotta lick my feet.. yuckss... i started to miss you guys badly.. i miss careena.. dominance.. damien.. my new friend ling chee kang.. hahaha. he is a funny and good guy.. careena...i will support u in what you wanna do.. yea!! HMM... btw.. ya. i forget to mention.. me n kamlan n someone watched DRAG ME TO HELL last week.. hahaha.. nice movie.. i m scared of granny after watching that movie.. omgosh.. i m having 2 tests and one presentation and test next week.. shxt so many things to do la.. k la.. gotta save time.. chiaoozzz..bb..GBU..JLU..

HURT..

i am hurt, i am sad by people around me. i just wanna make things clear here. though i seldom find u guys but you all are always in my heart. i do cherish everyone of you. especially those i always think about and msg them. even though we may study in diff places but i am still here for you to care bout you. i know your life is difficult now, my life are too.. everyone has their own difficulties. though i look okay outside but deep down in my heart i feel like dying, there are just so grudges and sadness inside my heart. i feel like screaming.. i wanna release all these. who will be there for me when i need someone? i didnt change and i never change.. i am still the same elaine that always there to concern bout you guys.. when i know that you guys facing problems do you think i will be happy too? i am just acting like ntgs going on and be cheerful so that you guys may feel better. sometimes the way you all comment bout me is too harsh for me. but face the fact, even clowns have their own emotional. and mine is easily influences. please do think of my feeling. i am a human being too.. stop forcing me to be someone i hate.. i m going to burst soon..

GOSH..

....GOSH...

MIDTERM TESTS ARE AROUND THE CORNER.

AND YET I NOT YET START MY REVISION..

OMG... ASSIGNMENTS AND EXAMS...

though i have wasted one of my weekend again,

i am happy=)

we went JAMING... guess what.. I PLAYED DRUM!!! (but cacat wan)

hahahaha... recently i am busy droping down my kamlan's buku catatan..

hahaha... she owes me alot man!! haha..

of course i owe her alot too.. haha.. i am glad to have her as a kamlan..

we just sign a kamlan cert.. which will last forever..

wakakakaka.... she cant avoid me adi... she need to face me forever.. yuppiee...

currently i miss someone soooo muchie... how i wish i can be the one now..

owhhh... if i can hug the one now.. how i wish the time will stop forever...

T.T i miss my home too.. this weekend i m going HOME!! yippie

oh gosh.. i had grown fatter.. hope my parents do not realise it la..

hahaha if not KENA again... ALRIGHT.. gtg.. tata..

need to do lots of planning

soon i will be like this...

GOSH!!! there are still many things not yet be done, some not yet even started..

OMG... so many things to do in degree.. so fast now we are entering week 6 adi.. week 7 we will have test... OMG OMG!!! is like so many assignments need to pass up soon.. better start to move now!!! must increase my speed adi.. soon i will commit suicide la... aiyor.. so many things to do... help la... need to manage lo....

eMOlaine

totally expressing how am i feeling right now...

emo! emo! emo!

why could these things happen to me?

am i the one who changed or is my surrounding has been changed?

why ppl act so strange lately?

why so many uncertainty happen lately?

aikss.. who can answer me?

arghhhh...