i m not okay act..

these few days i m tired of hiding myself from the truth.. i m not okay act.

i just cant take things easy.. i just cant accept that it is the end.. but i need to face it..

i got lots of things to do.. i always make myself busy to avoid thinking the fact. but somehow before my bed and after my bed, i will automatic think bout it again.. arghh i hate it..

how can i have a sincere smile anymore? where is the cheerful and happy elaine?